I also have been going through some changes inside of myself and not ones that I am liking very much.
I don’t even feel like scrapping most of the time. This layout is about one of the most significant things going on for me right now. Hard to
put things into words cause seeing them makes it hurt all the more. I am hoping by putting them down though that I can maybe look at things differently. I wish that the one person who loved me for me was still alive and that I still had her to talk to and to hold me when I need to be held.
Why do I feel my life is now so black. Isak is on his way to becoming
very independent and I am stuck in a slump. No one person whom I can be myself with. I thought I had found that person and would be so happy to spend the rest of my life with them. I thought they like me and then I had to go and ask them out for dinner. Now they will barely talk to me. I took a risk and I never take risks. I have never wanted to take a risk. For them I did, I was so wrong. 03/08